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Symptoms: Before, during and after treatment

I'm gonna talk about all the symptoms I experienced through this whole ordeal. Some of it is not very pleasant, but I want to talk about it to hopefully help someone out their looking for answers. I know I talked a little bit about it in previous posts, but I really didn't go into too much detail, or tell everything.

To start, one of the first symptoms I experienced was abnormal bleeding. I did talk about this earlier, but didn't really dive into it as I should have.  I had bleeding in between periods, but the red flag really was bleeding during and after sex.  I was a little afraid to talk about that part, but it needs to be talked about. It wasn't every time at first, just a little here and there, but enough to know something wasn't right. The bleeding in between periods was light, and I really did think that it was possibly PCOS. More like hoping. That would be better than the possibility of cancer.  Those were really the only symptoms I experienced leading up t…
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About a week and a half after Danielle passed away, I got a huge surprise.  I was told Josh and I were invited to our friends Matt and Megan's for dinner. I was pretty excited about that. I enjoy visiting with them.  I had school work to do before I could do anything and I was going to the school library to do it. We were living with Josh's grandma for a little bit transitioning from an apartment to a house.  So while I was at the school, Josh went and ran some errands.  I just thought he was keeping himself busy while I got school work done.  When I was done with school, he picked me up then we went to a tattoo shop where Josh got a tattoo done in his armpit. He got the cervical cancer ribbon. The reason he chose his armpit is because he said Cancer Stinks!

After his tattoo, we had some time to kill before we headed to Matt and Megan's. Josh told me they had errands to run and they would let us know when they were home and we could come over. Earlier in the day, I had acc…

My Sweet Friend Danielle

Right after I got the news that I was cancer free, just five days to be exact, my dear sweet friend Danielle passed away suddenly in a freak accident.  It was awful. She was missing her cat for a few days and her and her daughter found the cat in a tree near where they live.  The cat was pretty high up in the tree, but Danielle was not afraid of heights. She went and got one of their ladders and climbed up the tree to get her cat. I'm not sure the exact details of what happened, but she fell of the ladder and when she landed, it wasn't good. She was rushed to the hospital and had severe internal bleeding and they tried all they could, but they couldn't save her.

It was awful. She was one of the nicest, sweetest people I have met in my life. I only got to know her for a few years, but in that time, she made a huge impact in my life. I would go to her for advise, she was very easy to talk to. Non-judgmental, but very committed to her Christianity. She would have given you th…

First post scan results

I had my first post treatment exam at the beginning of August with the gynecologic oncologist. At that appointment she prescribed my estrogen patches and also explained to me that I needed to use a dilator to keep from getting scar tissue build up so my vaginal tract doesn't close up.  I didn't really realize that could happen, but it can. She said everything looked good and I would see her in about three months. 

In September I was scheduled for my first post treatment pet scan. My anxiety was kicked up in high gear. I was later told that it's called scanxiety. Almost every person that has gone through cancer gets it. That was scheduled September 6, and my doctors appointment wasn't scheduled for the results until the 19th so I had to wait a few weeks to get them.  Dr. Gay actually called me the week before I went to see him and Dr. Wagner to let me know that things looked good! I was pretty happy. He didn't give to many details but gave me a little piece of mind…

Summer after treatment

I did my best to enjoy the rest of the summer after I was done with treatment. Josh and I did our usual of going to his dads house for the 4th of July. I usually like to spend the day at the beach, but I wasn't feeling up to even wearing shorts.  I was still bloated from all the treatment and didn't really feel all that great about myself.  Also that weekend, his cousin was having a bachelor/bachelorette party that we went to.

Later in July I went to the Oregon Coast with my family. We stayed in a house with my dad, step mom, step sister and her boys, my brother, and my oldest cousin and his family.  It was a nice enough house. It had a lot of steps, which normally wouldn't bother me at all. I enjoy that kind of exercise. But this time, I wasn't fully recovered from treatment so the steps were kinda hard for me. They were also small steps. And I mean that by the steps themselves were only about as big as my feet and I have small feet.  I told myself to be careful, I j…

Getting through it all

I had taken a leave of absence from work the last 4 weeks of treatment and one extra week after my last treatment. I am still incredibly grateful for the company I work for. When I was first diagnosed, I didn't tell a lot of people what was going on. I am pretty introverted, and I also didn't want to be treated any different.  After learning all I would have to go through, I knew there was going to be a time when I would need to take time off work.  Not just because I thought I wasn't going to feel good, but because with the schedule I had to do my treatment. I had Chemo on Mondays, external radiation Monday through Friday. And then in week 4 I had brachytherapy on Fridays. So it made it difficult to work full time.

I wasn't sure how I was going to manage taking time off to get through all this. I started looking into what kind of financial help I could get. There wasn't much for living in Idaho. If I had lived in Washington, there were quite a few.  Then the most …


I want to go into more details about brachytherapy.  The first one I had, I got to go under anesthesia and while that took a long time to get through, I didn't feel any pain.  The four I had after that, I had to take a anti anxiety pill a half hour before I got to my appointment, and once I was there when I got called back, they set me up with an IV and gave me some morphine for the pain. And it was a lot more painful that I had expected. Even having the lorazepam and the morphine, it was probably the most painful thing I've gone through so far in my life. I'm not sure what to compare the pain to, but it was like this sharp, stabbing pain when the doctor would insert the rods.

I'm not sure what the rods looked like, I didn't want to look. I have it in my head that if I see it, it will hurt more. I never look anytime I'm getting blood drawn or an Iv put in.  I'm not going to put a picture of the brachytherapy in this post as anytime I've googled it, its …